i was just thinking
this is good, this feeling of us.
when did we become a three?
wandering around from empty day to empty day seems long gone.
and i know it was just yesterday.
this is life, right now.
i will think, wow, yesterday was a heartbeat behind me.
and that will be years from now.
when you’re taller than me. when your rounded cheeks have smoothed out, and your easy laughter has ebbed into a conservative snicker.
we wont be comfortable as grown ups, you and I. too late i think i am half way there. and you’re on your way. You know when i was little the stars seemed so much bigger and obtainable, and now…they’re just flecks of reflective light in a vast emptiness.
its the three of us now on the sofa. your heads on my shoulder and legs tossed over his lap. how comfortable we three are.
tomorrow what will you remember about us, and this….
you wont be like me, recalling my childhood the loud voices, the anger the intimidation.
no. i think it will be….this.
arms, reaching, hands holding, a kiss goodnight from mom and “dad”. i think tomorrow i will miss this. for now i ‘ll try not to think of you as twenty something with a life beyond barbie’s and ponies. Right now. Life is here. goodnight. sweet dreams. I love you too.